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-snowsnowsnow but ground not frozen yet. bulbs going in.

-grouse in the crabapple tree eating crabapples. hazard wanted me to help him hunt them.

-tons of disability phoning and forms last week, used most of typing/writing

-art studio nice and full a couple days, for mug fundraiser and the fibre people just hanging out

-off birth control pill = digestive system fixed, feel like myself, charge into things like conversations or cooking but still have brain fog so sometimes ultra mess up. F'rinstance, looking into the sidemirror, seeing my driveway as I try to back into it, brain somehow deciding I was trying to avoid it rather than back down it it so correcting to back into ditch (caught myself before I went actually in the ditch in the snow, but still, it's that kind of thing). Also more muscle and joint pain. Also waking up ultra dehydrated in a puddle of sweat most nights. ARGH. No dangerous levels of S thoughts. Currently seem to be going back and forth two days on, two days off as the symptoms of each option end up sucking. Maybe I should call the nurse line and ask for advice.

-woodstove season is nice

-pulled my back pretty badly for a couple days, the same spot I pulled when I first moved into the house. Getting up and down from the toilet etc was pretty bad. Drugs, rest, gentle movement & time fixed it

-the cats' winter coats are deeply velvety and they fight on my bed at 7am when they get hangry before breakfast

-ate three meals a day for awhile, though admittedly it was mostly bologne sandwiches, scones, pears, and greek salad. Having an abundance of those things that were easy to make was great. I felt rich, luxurious, and generally good. Maybe also linked to food not meaning a ton of pain

-super crashed out after disability stuff and pottery thing

-peonies going in the ground shortly, into the snow

-all pig rescues in "northern" and "interior" BC are full (that is more than a couple hundred kms from the border)

-happy to be alive. Not relieved, but actually happy.

-I know I'm forgetting things

Garden

Sep. 25th, 2025 10:12 am
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We've had the first frost, not last night but the night before. Here are garden notes.

Tomatoes:

Cherries: champagne cherry, green grape, green doctors, rons carbon copy, sungold select (almost a saladette, a bit variable), copper cherry, Hawaiian red currant, sunpeach, coyote, snow white cherry, pink princess get planted again of cherries.

Coyote and kiss the sky and one rozovaya bella were crossed and one of the two crossed kiss the sky plants sported into a saladette (!!!). The crossed coyote had that flavour. Growing these all out except maybe the roz bella.

Mission mountain grex second year the orange fluted gave me four orange fluted plants, nice and productive, and the yellow antho pear gave me variable breadth yellow antho pears.

Mission mountain grex first year I got an antho grape that didn't ripen, a beautiful stripe saladette that ripened decently, and a beautiful antho blush thing that I'm going to try again. Oh, and a micro I'll grow out this winter maybe.

Miracle cheriette project very satisfactory, great flavor, 2 larger and 3 cherries to continue -- one black, one large grape, and another grape with interesting calix shape. Those are the early ripening and prolific.
Otherwise utnyok, cesu agrais, sareaev 0-33, sugary pounder, rozovaya bella, black sea man, katja, jory, maya and sion, jd cooper are the slicers to do again, offhand.

Zesty fir and uluru mikado trial decent, though the uluru mikado weren't well watered and thus got a bit of blossom end rot -- they were in with the brassica greens I let go to seed and then dry down. Zesty fir plants are very well behaved and decently early.

Zesty carbon f1 grew a huge plant with huge tomatoes. Can't wait to see the f2.

I haven't got into the greenhouse yet but I know there are rozovaya bella and I believe JD Coopers ripe in there, as well as less-good-tasting Amy's Apricot and better-tasting snow white cherry. Also a bunch of other things but I'll write that up when I get in there.

Woody perennials: I hit up the garden center several weeks ago, I think on Avallu's ok-to-go-outside check, on their fall sale day. I had been flirting with a discounted quercus macrocarpa all summer and picked it up since the sale + discount made it worthwhile. So now I have two bigger macrocarpas in the front yard, as well as some tiny ones. I've also ordered some acorns, which-- I'm going to need to be doing a lot more from seed now, even big things, for financial reasons.

Also into the front yard were four "mystery" romance cherries (discounted because the tags had fallen off and then again on the sale" on top of the one from way back that already was there, and the three labeled ones (cupid, juliette, and I forget the third but it has a clay label) from this spring.

Then a sumac "Tiger eyes", a quercus gambelii, a lonicera Goldflame, a morden concord and a valiant grape, and there will be a named hazel variety. This is all part of screening the front yard as the aspens are gone, so I can hang out there. My house sits on a curve in the road and on a bit of a rise, so my front yard is a bit of a stage for anyone driving along that long curve. And lately a lot of people have been driving my and slowing down significantly as they go past my house. I used to think it was because of the pigs, but the pigs aren't visible from there anymore, so I think it's just because they can kinda see through the vegetation. I'd like that to stop.

I also have a bunch of black currants I haven't planted yet, and a row I want to plant something tall in to screen the winter garden but not screen it enough to shade the garden, maybe something 8' tall or so.

Oh! This spring I also planted most of a ring of swamp white oaks in the back upper field, the one that is basically a stream during snowmelt and dries up by June-somethingish. These oaks should be ok with that, and give me a nice big ring. I paced out the ring instead of measuring it, and it's on a slope, so it'll be interesting to see how it goes. They got mulched and not watered much, nearly all survived regardless.

Josh and I got a bunch of apple and seabuckthorn seeds on the trip up with Avallu and those will be started for next year. Seabuckthorn seems to do easily from seed.

Perennials: This is the year I started planting perennial flowers that aren't roses. I haunted that sale and got a bunch of $5 and $3 plants, daylilies and salvia and some verbascum and russian sage and ecinacea and whatnot. I have ordered some peonies, some common (inexpensive) cultuvars and a bag of root fragments that are unlabelled, they'll take a long time to bloom but I have more time than money (I hope).

I also found a lead on inexpensive daffodil bulbs and am putting a bunch of them in, underplanting with a bunch of smaller bulbs as you might expect. Basically any new bed that goes in will have bulbs in it if I can do anything about it (which means fall planted, mostly, since I am unlikely to go back and put bulbs into existing beds).

Weeds: the aspen suckers are nuts this year, which is unsurprising. They take about two years to get 8-10' tall or so and over an inch thick, so there are a couple clumps I missed last year that feel like real trees now and need different equipment to cut down. If I cut them twice a year I can use the really robust hedge shears. It's all really hard on the hands, like I lose the ability to hold cups after for awhile. I've been trying to track down proper ratcheting pruners but it seems like they're out of fashion.

The invasive thistle is everywhere. If I deep mulch yearly it's easy to pull out once a year, also hard on my hands but keeps it from going to seed. Thing is, I need to cut the aspens before I deep mulch, so there's this whole particular sequence that needs to happen and it kind of needs to happen everywhere at once? normally I do cardboard then compost then mulch, but when mom was here last spring she took out most of the gardboard and I've been using the rest to build beds, so grass has cme up to complicate the aspen/thistle removal. I'm definitely getting into a sense for what yearly maintenance will look like. The south slope bed is my oldest one, and honestly I haven't had many longlasting beds I got to handle in a non-professional capacity, so it's interesting to play around with it. The soil is improving steadily, which is good and also maybe why the weeds are so intense. If I can get 6-8" of mulch on everything and the aspen suckers cut down by mid-april I'll e in good shape.

The scentless chamomile which took over the untilled spots in the winter garden dyes fabric well and lastingly, which is nice. I'd still rather have edible chamomile, but this stuff pulls out easily in spring. I'm ok with it. Clover seems to outcompete it too.

My feral gai lan did some good seeding this year, I'm collecting a lot of the seeds and going to move them up from the winter field to the apple field. The back field is lots of clover and grass where the oaks didn't go in. The clover is self-seeding now, which is excellent, but the grass is a bit of a challenge.

I'm losing typing coordination so I'll set this asde for now. But. Good gardening year, looking forward to nxt.

Oh, two kinds of sunflowers did super well. And I need to write about herbs.
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The last two days I rested, and spent some time gathering tomatoes from the garden before frost, to ripen indoors.

Today I visited with my high school art teacher who was driving through, and I taught pottery and more specifically handbuilding with slab templates.

Then I came home, passed out for three hours, and have now read two Li-Young Lee poems. His work keeps getting better. It isn't possible.

I was having trouble moving yesterday, just too much has happened in the last month, and to be honest today I couldn't remember where my blinkers and windshield wipers were half the time n the same truck I've been driving for years. My wrists were too weak to hold mugs easily the last two days. But I made it home. I slept in a ring of cats. And for a week I will rest, garden, and exist within the space of equinox.

Soon it may be time for another space of poetry, time to clean the chimney for winter fires, and time eventually to take up pottery at home again.

My art teacher wanted to reassure me that she thinks I've made a good life and she admires it and that I shouldn't feel bad about it. I told her that I don't think I'm supposed to like my life much -- I was supposed to be smart and do university well and high powered jobs -- but that I like myself and I like the life I've made. I told her the way she ran her class, letting me do what I wanted and being supportive, may have saved my life during that time. She showed me pictures of her 12 cats and we talked about my 5.

It's not that I don't like people. It's that I'm person-selective, like Avallu is, and didn't know it because I used to select so effortlessly.

The pottery studio was so full today, we have a new sculpture member and then there was the class (only 5 of the 6 came back, the 6th may have had some lung issues down there) and Rose dropped by some of the work she'd made at home and every surface was covered with people making such an array of objects with such a diversity of approaches that I could almost believe that humanity really is a diversity instead of an unbreachable duality, and that it was going to be ok.

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Throwing on the wheel requires finding a moment of absolute stillness and... armouring it. The clay will try to push stillness off-kilter. It can't be made still by simple force, but it requires assertiveness, a coordinated effort by every muscle in the body, if just for one or two full revolutions of the wheel. After that first, armoured stillness movements need to be relatively precise but gentle.

It was a good idea to get back to the wheel.

A friend mentioned that sometimes overstimulation for them feels like having energy. I feel like I have energy today even after taking two dogs in to the clinic in town for vax and doing pottery (mostly glazing but some throwing) for many hours, from 3-7.

I've been carefully staying in bed, resting. It's raining and cool but not too cool, the air is soft but not sticky, it's not too bright or loud. I have attracted four cats to the bedroom, which is either rain or the fact that I should be resting-- they pick up on that. I want to go down to the wheel or out to the garden but I am not. I'm being good for my future self.

I have buns and prosciutto and blue cheese and lovely fresh lettuce and herbs. I also have corn dogs but after the burns I gave myself canning I'm resting active cooking for awhile. I have a package of shrimp and a lemon for the rice cooker too.

Having been reminded by the wheel what stillness feels like it's easier to find it in myself for true rest today.
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Every election a different group of people turns into preppers, as if social support and the standard of living isn't drifting downwards so slowly the whole time.

There's so much I feel I can't say to folks around this: how exactly their responses echo the other side's responses on my off-grid etc groups four years ago, what access to medical care and standard of living and stability during climate events looks like over time, the complete symmetry in discussions on how to protect oneself from the other side.

I just removed the "" from the other side. It's like twisting a ripe peach with your hands and it comes apart into two halves and the pit pops out.

Someone on a local group -- in Canada -- just posted that they couldn't get a family doctor or dermatologist appointment in a reasonable time, and did anyone have tips for handling some skin issue. Everyone did have tips: keto, gut health, essential oils, various potions and amulets. Again I think about how if you can't personally access the benefit of something you need a reason why it's not really a banafit, you need to justify in your own head that it's better this way-- or if you don't, I would imagine that's when the torches come out? I've never seen that happen.

Even in myself, when I wait for a specialists appointment for long months to years, I begin to think that surely they couldn't do that much anyhow. Which is, of course, ascientific. But the feeling is there.

Everything was ultra muddy yesterday and the day before, things had thawed. I put down woodchips since I had access to them, though that means I need to keep the geese off long enough to establish a vegetation cover or it'll just break down into soil and more mud.

Last night it froze. I still need to plant my variety of sunchokes that I got from a semi-local tiny shop, one of these people who posts a couple videos on youtube of their garden and collects rare things. I ended up with skorospelka, stampede, red fuseau, clearwater, corlis bolton haynes, and beaver valley. May have to break through a frozen crust to get them in.

The peonies are in, and a ton of bulbs. This long slow fall has been a blessing for my body and my hope as I was able to put a little in the ground at a time for so long.

Assuming I achieve some sort of stable financial situation where I'm not doing paperwork all the time-all the time, I'm curious about whether I can write poetry still. My mind is so different from what it was, but poetry still feels like a mother tongue. It's just that my tongue is more often feeling silent these days, replaced by the experience at the inside of my eyes. Either way, these are times that call for poets and I feel the call, whether or not I can answeer.
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Might as well update about the animal situation.

Solly and Thea are working great as a team all night. I put them in the front at night (the grain is all there) and Avallu in the back with the geese, Thea I put in the back during the day with Avallu so she can go in and eat and I can keep Solly mostly on her puppy food.

Avallu is getting more ok with Solly, but after two incidents where he was pretty sure she belonged only on the porch we need a little more than current levels of ok. In the evenings we often do cheese o clock, where they all see each other through the fence and get lots of cheese. I think they may have got too much cheese, so I may need a lower-fat alternative for some of these evenings. Avallu is doing well listening to commands even when Solly is in close proximity, but he's also very respectful of the fence. Solly is very wary of Avallu after the last couple incidents but has a seemingly limitless well of optimism and is coming around with enough cheese again.

I've definitely made some mistakes during this intro but I suspect everyone can be convinced to forgive me.

The geese are sleeping right up close to Avallu many nights and spending more time than usual up by the house. I can tell when there are no bears around because they go into the orchard. They've taken care of this spring's goslings well and those are now fully feathered. The orchard is pretty well mown at this point and the geese are starting to gorge on grain to fatten up for fall, they've gone from roughly a quarter bucket of grain per day for the 31 of them to closer to a whole bucket.

I have an ancona drake swap lined up for later this year, so he can cover this last two year's ducklings.

Incubator full of chicks should hatch while I'm gone. Things will be set up for mom to just plunk them into the quail shed under lights. These are mostly chanteclers but with a half dozen silkies. If I'm going to do silkies I might as well do seramas, which are the sweetest chickens on earth, but there are none to be had up here. Also Clyde the new rooster (his previous family got him as Bonnie and when he started to crow had to part with him) is doing well. He's a brahma, so he should get very big, but right now he's young and pigeon-sized with ENORMOUS FLUFFY feet. He's also smart, social, and I like him a great deal. I have not yet evicted the previous rooster from the bottom coop and put him in yet, I'm planning to do that when the chicks are a bit older, so right now he's sleeping under the truck canopy at night and hanging with the muscovies during the day. His crow is growing in adorably; I guess I have a thing for adolescent rooster crows.

The three boars have been shedding, I can scratch them with a rake and all the curly wool comes off and leaves growing-in guard hairs. I think they should move to the back to guard that entrance, though really Baby and Hooligan are the better defenders against bears. Did I mention Hooligan kinda bit me when I was stealing her babies? She didn't break skin or even bruise me, but she put her teeth on me in warning after I'd ignored her barking and other warnings. She is 100% a perfect temperament in this regard: she lets me play with her newborn babies if I'm not harassing them, catching them, and making them scream and she loves being scratched behind the ears but she can gauge situations in which it's appropriate to defend and does so with careful escalation. I'm just very impressed with Ossabaws in general, but also her in particular.

We do have at least two bears back there, one big and one small, that appear unrelated. The big one doesn't mind bear bangers, air horns, dogs, or yelling so I'm worried about what will happen come fall. Two bears in that territory is already a lot and it's only August. When bears go into their super calorie-seeking mode before winter they're less cautious and maybe it's not safe to have the pigs back there then? On the other hand the whole herd of pigs may actually be better defenders than the dogs, at least until the whole pack gels and maybe even after that.

The poor cats are withering away from lack of love and attention since I've been into the office several days the last few weeks. Also Demon is not a fan of a New Person in the house to farmsit and complains loudly when she's not around. I expect he'll come around. They continue to break down all doors into my bedroom to sleep on the bed, to my detriment.

Ducks are ducks. The anconas are in the covered area, and I want to make more covered areas for bear/lynx/raven/fox/coyote protection for the littles in future years. One broody ancona made a nest just inside the chicken house so I can barely squeak the door open and squeeze in and she will not be shifted. Everyone likes lamb's quarters weedings from the garden.

It's good? At least until the bears finish eating my neighbour's chickens and turn more attention on me.

Hungry fall

Aug. 1st, 2023 08:13 am
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There are a LOT of bears around right now. In town there were 15 sightings yesterday of at least 5 different bears, my one bear on the back has swelled to several of different sizes, etc etc. Not sure if this is because of the drought, of a frost that nipped a lot of the flowers this spring and led to less fruit, or the fires chasing them in close, or probably all of them. Plus the last few years have been really good years for the bears with 3 cubs per sow being frequent, so a year where a bunch starved is definitely due. Starting this early, though-- it's going to be an intense fall as they all go into calorie storage mode. I clearly need to fortify.

Which is an introduction to just saying that last night I woke up at 3am and helped Thea and Avallu chase two bears away ("help" is an overstatement, I held the flashlight. Man those dogs run fast) and then went back to sleep. In my dreams a sow and three cubs came close into the yard and me and the dogs were hitting them with sticks to try and get rid of them and then a friend(?) showed up and finally shot the sow. Then we were starting to allocate meat & fat (I'm more interested in fat, for soap) when I woke up. It was one of those experiences where real life blends seamlessly into a dream, I was wearing the same thing, it was basically just a continuation.

I woke up tired into a beautiful sunny dew-drenched morning and told my dogs they were so, so, so good and came in to work.

It's coming

Nov. 3rd, 2022 09:18 am
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We're supposed to get our first real snow of the year in the next 24 hours: 20-30cm.

Shortly thereafter it's supposed to drop to -23C or lower. It's going to be very hard on the plants; the soil is still dead dry.

Last night I was out with the headlamp and then this morning out with the headlamp again.

I got the tillers under cover, got some roofing on next year's split wood (but there's still maybe 2/3 cord to split, and the splitter is still out there, and I didn't do the aspen yet).

I got all my lumber (2x4s, spare house wood, etc) under cover but not up on racks. I had to pry some of it off the ground, pretty much everything has a couple inches of gravel frozen to it at this point.

I got the garlic covered in straw.

I raked the snowblower path from the house back to get twigs etc out of the way, but I didn't get the front of the driveway done.

I got the animal carriers split, clamshelled, roughly cleaned (there was some frozen stuff I couldn't get off) and put under cover.

I got extra straw to everyone to keep them warm.

I picked up a bit more garbage and organized some things, put all the cardboard in the cardboard pile.

I got the hoses strung up on the deck, but only one got put away (I snaked it through the rafters on the goose shed, which is honestly where I should put some of the 2x4s)

I did not get the far-back straw bales re-covered for a third time after the wind blew the tarps off; my plan was to bridge between the two with some treetrunks and put some roofing over so I can get the pigs back there in the spring. I need to do that tonight, during "at snow; at times heavy".

I did not get the back side of the animal carrier A-frame reattached where it blew off.

I did not get the missing metal panel from the pigpen reattached; I need to cut several metal panels and put them up for that.

(Doing this now) I did not let the fire go out and clean the chimney, but I really should do that before the hard cold comes.

I did not test-start the snowblower or pull the garden textiles off it (they have not been stored in a bin safely).

(Did half of this) I did not get all the flower pots from my deck moved off the lawn out of the snowblower path.

I have not yet wrapped the apple trees and berry bushes to keep voles from eating the bark.

Busy times.
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Since I never trust my plant markers *especially* over the winter, here's how my garlic bed is laid out:

The garlic is mostly in north-south rows just north of the gooseberries etc, in two patches: one on the east side of the aspen and one on the west. The east side is planted in more formal rows, the west side starts with more patches. The rows are not perfectly parallel since I couldn't get the tiller running, so it took some legwork to make the trenches to plant into on the east side, and I used the bulb planter for my drill on the west side.

The southern bed is covered in straw, the northern bed is not yet.

From east to west the rows are:

Prussian white (short row, only 1 bulb/4 cloves)
Northern Siberian
Metechi
Northern Quebec
Red Rezan
Great Northern
Purple Glazer
Portugal Azores
Georgian Crystal
Kostyn's Red Russian
Sweet German
Linda Olesky
Sweet Haven
Duganskij
Pretoro (short row, only 1 bulb/ 4 cloves)

(Aspen Tree)

Elephant Garlic planted by the State Fair apple tree so not in line with the others, only 3 cloves (the catalogue said 3 bulbs, I'm not pleased with their advertising)
Khabar (more in a patch than a row)
Fish Lake 3 (only 1 bulb/4-5 cloves)
Newfoundland Tall
Dan's Italian (1 bulb)
Dan's Russian
Brown rose
Wenger's Red Russian

All the above except the elephant garlic from Norwegian Creek garlic farm.

I still need to plant, from Woodgrain Farm, but ran out of room:
Music
Marino
Spanish Roja

That's a lot of kinds of garlic. This feels like a small trial to me, but I guess I really don't garden like other people do.
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I think this is the first time I've eaten an entire loaf of bread I made on my own. I have a recipe for a no-knead dutch-oven loaf I made a lot, but it was definitely bigger than I could eat all at once. I got a smaller dutch oven at one point to help shape it. For awhile I experimented with sourdough but couldn't get the intense sour taste withotu accompanying lacto flavours. I made some pretty loaves but just never did eat a whole one (I really don't like stale bread, so after 36 hours or so I usually won't eat it anyhow).

The other day I tossed together a loose pizza dough recipe in the style of no-knead, starting with 2 cups flour instead of the 3 or 4 I used to use. I think I was intending to make a pizza dough but habit took over and I tossed it in the dutch oven and it came out really nicely. I ate the whole thing over the course of 3 days -- I think the 90-ish percent hydration and olive oil I put in it kept it from feeling stale. I did two sets of stretch-and-folds, one before bed and one when I turned on the oven this morning to preheat it, and the loaf seems to have kept a nice shape.

So that's nice. Not sure why I'm baking bread again but I'll take it, bread at the store is between 3 and 5 dollars and it's not always great (though sometimes the airy cake texture of cheap white bread is fun).

I got some of my garlic in the ground last night. Everything is a race in the last sliver of light after work, then I put on my headlamp and feed the animals. I still need to get my daffodils in.

I got 200 gallons (!) of milk from the grocery store for the pigs, since the cooler went down with the power outage. Luckily it's in gallon jugs so it doesn't take me too too long to get it poured out for the day.

Both bulbs and milk is going to be complicated because the cold is here. It finally got real cold last night, -10C, which is more in alignment with the temperatures one would expect for this time of year. Days are still barely above freezing for now, and there's only a skiff of snow so far but that won't last. Hoses are frozen/I disconnected them last night and hung several of them to try draining, so I guess that means I'm bucketing water (and milk) now. I should figure out who I want where in terms of animals.

I do wish we'd had a good rain. I'm planting the garlic into dry dry soil, and I'd probably best put a sprinkler on it if we get a day a couple degrees above freezing. I want to cover it with straw but can't do that until it's watered in, I think.

Canned some goose, want to can some pork in the "beef pot roast" style since I realized it fries up really nicely when canned but the flavours in my al pastor and carnitas are sometimes just too much for me.

Money is a big issue right now too, the juxtaposition of the smithers/butcher trip, the last month's worth of feed for all the pigs, my property taxes, my house insurance, and a couple other bits and bobs makes me realize how much I overextended myself on feed over the summer. I do not like carrying a balance on my credit card but here we are. Time to get digging. There's some stuff about work, not having ratified a new contract, and so having not even the token raise we normally get, but I'll keep that out of here. We're not getting cost of living increase anyhow.

Oh! There's the timer on the bread coming out of the oven. Time to leave this and go see how it turned out.

Sorting

Oct. 25th, 2022 12:03 pm
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One of the questions in the autism assessment was something along the lines of, did you line toys up or sort them as a kid?

Well, it's fall. If spring is for sowing, summer is for harvesting, then autumn is for transforming. And transforming looks a lot like processing three roosters into fifteen jars, taking a clump of a thousand tomato seeds on a paper towel and winnowing them apart and separating them into packets, or taking lumps of fat and rendering them into amber lard which gets zipped into bars of shining ivory soap.

It's for transforming chaos into order, for taking the bounty scattered across the house, capturing it in geometric shapes, and shelving it in shining lines according to its properties: meat, fruit, vegetable, seed, soap.

Sowing and daydreaming brings great satisfaction. Reaping the harvest gives great satisfaction. When so much of that has been done that I'm glutted on it it's time to sort my toys in beautiful piles of abundance and line them up in shining lines.

Processing

Oct. 23rd, 2022 02:08 pm
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I altered my pork carnitas recipe to try canning a bunch of pork al pastor, to clear out the freezer some. This uses the basic raw pack + spices method. We'll see how it turns out, but I'm hopeful.

While that was going I made some rose soap, fried up some lions mane mushrooms from smithers with a little kimchi, split and brought in some wood, picked out three roosters for canning when the canner is free and searched out more jars for them, fed everyone outside some, processed some of the grocery store food fo the animals (lots of removing elastics and emptying small cartons of cream today), and now I'm trying to decide what to have for dinner.

Given how early I woke up, I should probably feed the animals a little more, give everyone a little more straw (it's cold out now! Hard on my fingers, can't be great for them) and come in and have a bath and go to bed super early or something.

I also pulled some loin & belly chunks from the freezer to try making two soft spread sausages: one nduja-style and one bacon-style. Stuffing the sausage is my least favourite part, and it's the part that often prevents me from starting on the project, but I realized: if it's spreadable sausage I can cook (sous vide) it in vacuum bags, freeze it like that, and then snip a corner and squeeze it out as I need it. If I were smoking it and fermenting it I couldn't do that, but I'm aiming for the easy-but-done end here.

"Nduja" spread will just be fat/meat + calabrian peppers + salt + a couple drops of liquid smoke
"Bacon" spread will be fat/meat + salt + pepper + a touch of maple syrup + liquid smoke
(I could do a corned pork one, a little firmer, to make hash out of?)

That stuff will take a couple days to thaw outside in the cooler though, especially in this weather, so I'll worry about running it through the meat grinder later on.

No rain

Oct. 14th, 2022 08:38 am
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It's been a couple months since we had rain, rare up here. We still have a burning ban on -- campfires are allowed, but nothing bigger, no bonfires or anything larger than 1m x 1m. The ban was recently extended till the end of the month.

My soil is dust. I gave the south slope a good watering several weeks ago, but I think I'm going to need to water it, the mushrooms, and the rhubarb etc again. While it's good for plants to go into winter on the dry side -- the cells are less likely to burst when they freeze if they have a lower water content, so there's less freeze damage -- it's not good for them to go into a cold winter water stressed.

I've finally excluded the ducks from my garden space. Even the rhubarb is in rough shape. If I water it they'll destroy the soil by digging it all up for worms, so they got the boot. Now I need to spend enough time at home to move the sprinkler for a couple days; I've been in the office to help me focus on data entry for he tail end of this week.

Down on the coast the situation is pretty intense. At this time last year the coast got tremendously heavy rainfall which washed out a lot of the roads between here and there and flooded a ton of that, er, floodplain that makes up the fraser valley. Now it's very very dry. Normally there's a dry period in the summer and then the rains start; sixty days without meaningful rain isn't completely out of character for the area. All the drinking water is surface water, though, so there are tremendous dams which are supposed to recharge over winter, then hold a summer's worth of water. Unfortunately the summer is over and the rains haven't come yet. Agricultural water is being cut off, and I know at least one small outlying community is going to run out of drinking water by the end of the month.

My weather app has been drifting cooler and cooler very slowly, but we still have a steady stream of clear skies predicted same as we have the last couple months. It's making me lazy around an additional pig structure, getting my straw covered, and all that jazz but it is really nice for line-dried sheets and spending the last few hours of light-outside-work-hours outdoors.
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Started mucking out the goosehouse. Can't get the organics smell off my fingers. Finishing pickles with my fingers smelling like this feels dodgy. Maybe I'll seed a bunch of tomatoes and see if that helps.
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I made garden signs for all my roses and gooseberries. Soon will do cherries and haskaps and apples, at least the ones I know the names of. These are signpost-style, with a stake and painted sign screwed to it. My plastic tags were not holding their marks, I guess sharpies have been reformulated, and so I lost some names that way. I lost some other names because crows and geese like the tags. So, wooden signs seem both practical in an enduring way and kind of charming. Now if only I had pretty painting handwriting, but I was not turning this into a stenciling project.

I found two more squash out there that looked pretty ripe, hiding among the weeds where they were sheltered from frost.

Josh helped me find a dairy crate full of relatively ripe cascade ruby gold cobs, so I'm calling that more of a success than I earlier anticipated. We'll be looking through the painted mountain today. The plants were definitely frost-nipped but I don't think the cobs themselves were harmed.

It's neat to be out in the corn and hear that dry, rustling noise of the leaves. Humans have been listening to that sound for many thousands of years as they bring in the harvest.

I've done a bunch of mixed pickles as documented on my preserving site, urbandryad on dreamwidth (I just keep recipes there). Basically I've done a couple gallons with my zesty brine at half strength for salt and sugar, a couple gallons with a lightly sweet brine, and I'll do a couple gallons with a salt-only brine. all have bay leaves and pepper, I forgot the garlic in the lightly sweet ones. Oops. The veg mix was largely brought up from the big farm on Josh's way from the city, it's more-or-less 1 part cauliflower, 1 part carrot, 1 part green beans, 1 part hot peppers, 1/4 part celery. The goal is a moderately hot pickle mix to eat with charcuterie, everything bite-sized.

Meanwhile Black Chunk (who has still not got a better name) had 8 piglets, and she's doing well with them. Lotta piglets this fall it seems. Ugh I guess I need to castrate, better do that while Josh is here. I will probably miss Tucker's calming presence for it.

A chicken in the bottom chicken run got huge adobe balls on her claws, they must have accumulated through iterations of mud (the ducks splash by the water a lot), dust (everywhere else in the run, it's been a dry summer), and straw/wood shavings from inside the coop. It took Josh and I roughly 3 hours to soak them (did nothing), chip away at the very edges with pliers delicately so as not to hurt wherever her toes were in the balls, and then finally pry the last bits off. I do not know why she got it and no others did. Her toes inside the balls were fine, though she did lose a fingernail by getting loose enough to shake her foot when we were part done and... you know, just don't think about it too hard, let's just say it was another weird and uncomfortable farming moment. She's good now, I gave her a penicillin shot for the one raw bit of the toe where the mud was rubbing and the toenail, I figured her body could use the help, and put her back in with everyone. She's lifting her feet ridiculously high as if trying to compensate for the weight that is no longer there, but is walking and perching just fine. Poor girl. Also I'm much less suspicious of cobb houses now, my goodness that stuff was durable. Clay soil, wow does it behave in unexpected ways sometimes.

Meanwhile I am going to keep one of the americauna roosters from my friend in town, and give another to a friend who has a couple hens and wants to let them hatch out more chickens in spring. That means 7 going into the soup pot this week, which is manageable. I've had the propane ring on the deck and that makes canning a lot more comfortable given the humidity situation in here, not sure if I'll can the roosters immediately or freeze them a bit but I'm more likely to can them now.

Asparagus planted. Daffodills, chiondoxia & relateds, and muscari ordered. These are all supposed to be vole-resistant, we'll see how it goes.
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Today I put a dozen asparagus plants and two dozen shallot bulbs into the garden, just above the southernmost slope, in amongst the roses and ribes and cherries and apple trees I planted in the last few months. In general I planted the shallots in close to the trees and cherries, to hopefully discourage voles, and the asparagus in a wider ring mostly on the western part of the garden.

In doing so I tested out my drill auger bulbs planter thing, which I do think is easier than using a trowel but would be way better if my soil wasn't so dust-dry it just flowed back into the hole. Oh well.
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Potatoes, beets, turnips need to come in

Dry peas that are left come in

Frosted beans examined for any that ripened and need to come in

5 rose bushes planted

3 oak trees planted

asparagus planted

garlic planted

Then:

raspberries pruned back

anything ploughed that can be

valerian and sweet ciciley seeds moved around


Still no rain. Clear warm days, clear cold nights. Soil like dust.
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King stropheria/ wine cap mushroom bed went in today. What I did:

Laid down a layer of cardboard

Laid down a bale of straw, one flake at a time flat like tiles, on top of the cardboard

Watered well

Crumbled my block of spawn over the straw

Set another two bales' worth of flakes over the spawn, again like tiles, so the spawn had one tile below and two above, for a total of roughly a foot of straw over the whole bed

Watered well

So altogether it was pretty simple. I had found some deck railing while at the dump the other day, so I scavenged that to block off the spot to the north of the storage container for the mushroom bed. The area is larger than the one bed, so if I want to double its size next year I can. I'm hoping there's enough time for the mycelium to get well established before it gets too cold out and everything goes into deep freeze. I'm also hoping it overwinters; my understanding is that it will, but I haven't found a ton of literature on trying to grow them this far north.
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I do not understand how I can have so much trouble with most transitions, but also do so well with seasons. Still, I do well with seasons. I love the seasonality of this place. I'm fully ready for each season in turn to shift my focus and my activities. Maybe it's the predictability, the feeling of processing through familiar sets of activities and so I can improve or alter what I did previously but don't need to start again from nothing. Maybe it's the feeling of building on last season's work so I never feel disconnected from the past, and knowing next season will build on this season's work so I don't feel that abrupt slicing loss of transition.

Either way, gardening is pretty much over and I'm ok with that (!?!!!???? !! ? !). I have turnips, the last of the soup peas, and some beets to bring in. I have the favas to look over, and the beans to see if any pods ripened. It's been too dry for me to plant winter grains, I daren't run the tiller or I'll turn my soil into dust, so I'll till once the rains start and wait to plant grains till spring. Maybe I'll do a test patch of barley. I've dug one hole for next year's as-yet-unordered apple trees, and I'll try and at least half-dig the holes for all of them, so when they arrive in the thick of spring planting I can just bang them in the holes and be done. The freeze/thaw will loosen the soil at the edge of the holes and help prevent circling roots in my clay, too, and I won't have to remeasure my circles of protection.

I do still have a couple roses to put in the ground, and the garlic that isn't yet arrived, too. But still, hoses and nurturing and watching and trying to guess what'll happen-- that's over. I have a half-dozen dairy crates of corn drying in the woodstove room. There is another dairy crate of corn (saskatoon white) waiting to be shucked, and a crate of melons (none ripened on the vine, but I'm going to let them ripen as far as they can and take seeds from those that have fully formed seeds), and maybe 4 flats of green tomatoes (many of which ripened in the last couple days, gotta get on that). I have two shelves of squash, and outside there is half a bucket of beans and a bucket of cucumbers that need to be pickled.

The barley crop is in, a fact that needs its own post to describe how much of a joy and a relief it is. I don't grow barley but the farmers one town over do; that's why I mostly fed my pigs until this year's shortage. Straw is available, $55 per large bale (that's the 3 x 3 x 8' bales) and I'll be getting some the week Josh comes up and we'll figure out how to unload (normally it's tying the bale to a tree and driving the pickup away from the tree, but I'd like to stack them two deep).

With straw comes the ability to lay in my king stropheria mushroom bed for next spring. I need to put it in the shade, somewhere that doesn't flood. Problem is, the shade is what stays frozen till late in the year, I might split the block and try two places.

With the barley harvest comes barley. Rolled barley, or barley and oat chop, is $450/ton this year. The bagged feed I've been using is $1100/ton, and in the last month I went through a ton and a half of feed. So, just financially, this is a relief. I've been running a negative balance on my credit card the last couple months, just absorbing the higher feed costs, because I can't not feed the animals and I couldn't butcher while it was hot.

It's also a relief to have the barley, and soon the barley and oats, because feed makes a big difference to the texture of the animals' fat. Barley and oats make a firmer fat, while the bagged feed make a softer fat. I prefer the firmer fat. I've read a bunch on this, I guess feeding on acorns makes a softer fat which folks like more in prosciutto but which is not so great in bacon, for instance. Acorns also supply tannins, which keep the fat from going rancid as quickly (smoke does the same thing, which is why so much rustically-preserved pork is smoked). Soft fat is hard to manage for slicing thinly, it's hard to butcher with, and I'm not as fond of the texture for eating. I'm of half a mind to give the pigs a full month on barley before I butcher so the fat can convert a little, rather than get the butcher in as soon as possible. Honestly I may not be able to get the butcher up sooner anyhow, it's a busy season. And my mind may change once it starts freezing enough to put the hoses away and I need to carry water by hand for over a dozen pigs.

I also have four little uncastratated suckling pigs I need to slaughter as suckling pigs shortly. Three of the four are living in the lean-to greenhouse and associated enclosure in a life of luxury as of yesterday; I need to catch the last one and put him in there. I do hate catching piglets, they scream at just the wrong frequency for my nervous system and then the whole herd of pigs starts barking and grunting menacingly and following me around trying to rescue the babies. I understand why the bears stay away. I wouldif I could, my heart is always pounding by the end of it and it takes awhile for the adrenaline to dissipate.

I always tell myself I'll set up a big carrier with feed in it just outside the main pigpen so the escapee piglets get used to it, and then I can just close them in and carry them away. Maybe I'll actually do that this time? There is a new set of piglets this week, and one mama sow I'm very impressed with, she'll be a keeper.

So I suppose this is the season where my attention is turning from garden to animals, from harvest to slaughter, and then from there to seed sorting once the seeds are dried.

I'm also feeling the pull towards sewing, towards warm snuggly clothing. It's still a fairly recent revelation that clothing doesn't have to hurt my body as long as it's made of the right materials and tailored right, and I'm looking forward to playing around with that this winter. The gears are in motion for me to approach that activity in a seamless transition, nosing around at patterns, clearing a table for a sewing table, cutting out patterns, making a mock-up for loose leggings and one for a short sweater or wrap dress to wear over leggings, just a little bit of something every week as the snow comes and everything else subsides.

Meanwhile Tucker is here. I had wanted to do a bonfire with him, as I've intended to do every year for the last five or so, but the burning ban is still on despite the frost -- did I mention it's dry out? -- so maybe we'll try to just arrange the pile for his next visit. In the meantime I get snuggles and doubtless a shared brunch of two, which are much-needed.
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Usually when I'm working (except sometimes when I'm in the bush) I'm super unaware of my self and my body, maybe some level of dissociated.

Today I'm working from home after staying up until midnight last night bringing in a ton of garden stuff and then finishing some apple canning (all 4 vanilla applesauce batches done, 2 different caramel applesauce batches done, lime apple jam and saskatoon apple jam done, slow cookers on pause a couple days for apples since I'll be canning dilly beans, cucumber pickles, and maybe maybe jumble relish of some kind tonight). I had a listen-only meeting and had skipped breakfast to finish a little more canning, so I fried up some fatty coppa pork chops, then sliced a couple corn muffins and fried them in the pork grease, then made a cup of dark coffee-substitute (I can't do the caffeine but love bitter and roasty flavours).

I had lunch on the couch in a slightly chilly room, clothed head to toe in good smooth wool with the cool of the room just outside it. The sky is dark and threatening and wind is tossing the silver undersides of the aspens around and making them sing a silvery static song that turns the shifts in movement of air into sound. The pork was crispy, juicy-fatty, and salty. The cornbread was crunchy, moderately sweet, and warm with that particular taste of grain corn. Cutting through both sweet and fatty was the dark hot roasted bitter flavour: everything warm against the room's coolness, the whole a moment of indoor stillness as the perfect counterpoint to outside's constant windy motion.

What a lovely moment.

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